Mom’s cancer is worse.  

Her crushing back pain, we found out, is from a tumor that is fast moving and aggressive.  They were going to do radiation but decided against it because she’s managing the pain with drugs.  They’re stopping the chemo (for the liver and lymph nodes) because of the back tumor.  

No point.

I don’t know how long she has (she told the doctor she didn’t want to know) but can only hope she’s kept comfortable and that I can see her as often as possible.

I’m pretty numb and may not be posting for a while.  It usually takes me a few days longer each time I see her.

Thank you, again, to those that have kept her in their prayers, wishes and thoughts.

14 thoughts on “Silence

  1. I was so worried that this was the cause of her back pain (we have a friend in the same situation but I hated to mention it). Numb is good for now, everything else will come in time. I know that you and your family are in a terrible spot, but II have to remind you to take care of you. If you need / want me you know where to find me. All my love.

  2. One sentence. “No point.” Devastating.

    Sending what I hope is strength to you all.

  3. I am relatively new to your blog, but I am sorry to hear this. It sounds like exactly what my mother had.

    The only good thing is that you will appreciate every single time you can still see her and talk to her.

    I’ll keep all of you in my prayers.

  4. Oh Laurie…. I am so sorry! I know exactly how you feel as we just went through this ourselves. Hang in there sweety. I know its not easy.

    I am here if you need to talk.

  5. ((hugs)) Hold on tight to her and try to enjoy the time that you have left together. My thoughts are with you and your family. I can empathize what you are going through we lost my father to pancreatic cancer.

  6. I don’t know you but I came over here from JessaLu and wanted to tell you how very sorry I am. My thoughts and prayers are with you and I am sending you strength. I can tell the love is already there…

  7. Laurie, you and your mother are in my thoughts and prayers. Hoping that she can be kept comfortable and the two of you can spend as much time as possible together. Please take care of yourself so you can be strong for her.

  8. Oh, my sweet funny pal… I am so sorry to hear this. Of course all my bottom-of-the-heart prayers are with you. If you need a (virtual) sounding board, I’m here for you. I’ve been where you are and… well, maybe I can be of some comfort at some point.

    Hang in when you can, fall apart when you need to, treasure the time.


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